almost a year

it's been a while since i've written here. things got complicated at school. this stupid emotional shit got in the way of my studies and i got an inc on one of my subjects. fuck. i tried not to think of her but i always end up doing the opposite. i still love her and i will always do. i wish we were still together or that i was given another chance but things didn't happen the way i wanted it to be. there's nothing i can do but to accept the fact that i will never see her smile, hear her sweet childish voice or hold her arms again. theres nothing to do but to move on. thankfully, my friends have been very supportive of me and i've met new people that are helping me move on. i should hang out with them more often. it'll make things easier. anyways, it's already 2016 and it's alost a year since things became shitty (we broke up march 17, 2015). hopefully, this year would be kind to me. im planning to do more stuff and be more active. i'm looking forward to doing things that i can't even think of trying before. i'm also hoping to meet new people and make new friends. i want to overcome and improve my introverted and passive self. the plan for the year is to look for something that makes me happy and then find that other person who i can share my happiness with. maybe it'll be this year. maybe it'll be the next. who knows. one thing is for sure: it's a new chapter of my life now and you're not the heroine anymore. i can't do anything about the past but i can do everything for the future. what i have to do now is to better myself and improve my flaws so that the future love of my life will stay by my side.