Entry #2: The Months Prior

We've broken up a couple of months ago but I thought of it more as a cool off rather than an actual break-up. After all, you said you wanted to prioritize your work and your career and I am on board. I'll do what I can to help you in anything and you know that. Besides, I was also working on my startup and improving my skills at the time. I was thinking that after sometime everything would be okay and we would be back together. After all, we've been through a lot but after 6+ years, we're still together. After the breakup, I didn't cry. Have I just fallen out of love like you said? I doubt that because if I did, this won't be a big deal and yet here I am, writing a blog to keep my self in check. We had a lot of fights before but every after fight, we would chase to one another to fix things up. You thought of breaking up with me before (about 3 times) but we were still together years later. Maybe I was thinking that this would be fixed again. Like all the other times. Besides, we promised that it would be us together for the rest of our lives. Little did I know that this would be a wrong assumption. Your birthday is coming near and I really want to win you back so I had a necklace made with 3 diamonds (i don't know if it's actually diamonds. i don't know shit about jewelry) and a pendant with your birthstone. I was hoping to give it to you for your birthday but since you shut me out, I had no way of contacting you. I saved a copy of your resume from your email so that I can mail the necklace or call one of your siblings and ask them to give it to you. Stupid me, I forgot that I can also contact you through your email. I don't know why but I didn't want to directly contact you. Maybe it's pride or something. I don't know what it is but it's stupid. Time passed and to keep my mind off things, I applied for grad school. That was on your birth month. I became quite busy processing all the required documents that I forgot to give you the necklace. Pride also kicked and screamed at me, "hey! she's the one who left you!". I don't know why and it was stupid but I didn't give you the necklace. I got accepted in grad school and I suddenly became busy. I still think of you from time to time and I've always wondered what you're currently doing. I subscribed to your FB when you re-activated your account which you updated like 4-5 times (cheerdance, China vs PH, about a bestfriend or something, Ginebra and another one that I forgot). I also check your email from time to time (sorry). You applied to a lot of companies but for some reason, you decline each and every one of them. I know you're very picky too when it comes to work so I applied as a coordinator for Mineski. Their office is in QC which is near your place and it's Mineski! Dude loves Mineski so I though you being there would be perfect for the both of you. Moreover, you're a good event coordinator so it would be a perfect fit! I recommended you but I really don't know what happened. Months passed and I though everything was okay. I'm studying and working on my startup which is travel related. Next year, the startup would be up and I would ask you back again. Hopefully by that time, you'd take me back and then both of us can travel through my startup (like we always wanted to do, but never materialized). It seems perfect. I couldn't be any more wrong.