Entry #3: The Rage-Filled Message

My birthday came and I would really love to see you again. However, I stumbled on that stupid video you made for your new boyfriend. Everything came crashing down on me. I can't stand. My knees feel weak. I feel cold and there is a gut-wrenching feeling that I cannot shake off. You had tons of pictures together and some of it were during the time you had short hair. WTF? We were still together back then (or so I thought) so I start scavenging the internet. What I uncovered was devastating. You've been seeing this guy for more than a year! I saw your photos from way back 2014. There were a lot. We were still together back then. There were comments like "Sino yan pre, bago na naman yan ah", "hindi, matagal na 'to" replied by your bf. There was even a check-in at UP Town Center on May 8, 2014. A day after your birthday. A day after we were together. It had a caption that says "with mahal". You've been having dates with this guy for a long while! The nail in the coffin was that someone saw you holding hands way back in December 2013. I only heard of this guy in a few of your stories. I thought you only saw him when you were working for Ann. Apparently, you referred this guy to your work at Kamuning. I was thinking it was out of pity since you said he was jobless. My friends said maybe you wanted him to spend more time with you. Then it came rushing to me. You've been complaining that you've been really busy with work and we didn't really have a lot of time to spend together. Why didn't you refer me? Is this guy why? Because you're seeing him? I came to a conclusion. You broke up with me because you wanted to be with this guy. I snapped and so, with rage-filled head, I wrote an email to you. Why did you just not say so? If you've been seeing this guy for more than a year, why did you not break up with me back then? What were you doing for the past year? Were you just pretending to be in love with me? Was I just a leisure activity (pampalipas-oras lol) to you? Was this all planned along because of what I did during our first few years together? A couple of hours later, I received an email.