Entry #5: The Last Message

Everyone was against the idea of me sending you a message. I didn't care so I sent you one. They were right, I just fucked things up even more. Writing the letter while I'm confused and enraged certainly didn't help either. What I wrote just made you angry even more. You said we both fell out of love. Is this the reaction of someone who fell out of love? You're the one who fell out of love but won't admit it. You said that you did not cheat on me and your relationship with him was like that of your friends from pa. Did you held hands with your friends there? I doubt that. I don't know why you still keep dodging that. The evidence is overwhelming. Besides, you chose the other guy over me. There's really nothing I can do. I can't force you to be with me. So why bother denying it? On your letter, you said that you waited for me on your birthday and that you pray that you will be able to accept the person that is actually for you. I didn't came but he did so you chose him. The question is, what would you have done if we both came? Considering you broke up with me. It would have been probably him. I asked you if you faked it all this time. You didn't address the issue. Maybe it's true. After all, months after you broke up with me, you're already with another man. You guys probably didn't even follow the three month rule. You moved on so fast. There were girls who asked me out but I declined because I was still hung up on you. Maybe I loved you more than you love me. Or maybe you didn't love me at all. You said you're very happy now. Reading that, my heart got crushed to a million pieces. I realized that I fucked up. You never said that to me. I just assumed that you were happy. If you're happy, then there's nothing I should do to stop that. After all, it's been your happiness that has been my priority and I'm willing to sacrifice everything even if it means me giving up. I concede. Your happy and that's what's important. It just sucks that it's not with me.