Entry #4: The Past

It was the first few years of our relationship. You were still working as a Youth Ambassador for KCCP. I just shifted to Geography. We both became busy. I met a girl and after a while, chemistry developed between us. It was wrong, I know. I have feelings for two different girls and that's just cheating. The time came when I needed to choose between the two of you. I chose to be with you. I was hoping you would still accept me despite what happened. I promise that if you did, I will do everything that I can to salvage our relationship. Luckily, you still accepted me. I was very thankful for the second chance you gave me. I promised myself that I won't screw things up this time. However, because I messed up big time, you did not trust me ever again. You became jealous at the smallest hint of contact with any girl. It became a problem because most of my friends are girls. I had to get rid of all of them and I did. I promised that I would do everything. With this in mind, I asked myself, was it revenge that you were after when you finally broke up me? Were you just playing the whole time so in the end you can get back at me? Who knows. I don't care. I just want you back. I stabbed your heart, but I came back and did my best to stop the bleeding. You stabbed me back, but you tossed me onto a field and left me to die.